Hi :) Im Kourtney, im 14 years old and i am (well will be hopefully) a pro-ana.. or a pre pro-ana?.
If you are against the opinions on this blog, then please do not read it. I completely understand if your are because its not the healthiest option. But I'm determined to do this and any hate messages are just going to get deleted.. so here goes...
I weigh about 50 kilos and am 157cm tall. Which apparently is a "healthy" weight for my age and height.
Though I dont really agree with that opinion.
When I look at myself in the mirror, all I see is fat.
Fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat and more fat.
I feel disgusting.
Im not unpopular at school. In fact, im friends with most of the people there. I have many close friends too. Who are really supportive of me. They compliment me, comment on my photos and make me feel good about myself :)
But these minor self esteems boosts dont last for very long.
I hate healthy foods... i dont eat hardly and vegetables or fruits, i barely drink water. I love foods like breads, eggs, pasta and dairy (all the fatty foods :@!!).
But i've decided to do something about my weight and be a pro-ana!
Meaning a pro anorexic.
I mean im not anorexic yet, but im determined to get there.
I've been looking up tips and advice, sites and blogs i can follow. And i haven't eaten all day today! I've only had a chocolate milk (let myself down a bit there), a orange juice and a glass of water.. but im about to have dinner.. :/
Ive tried purging but its much too hard.
Ive decided im going to try and just eat dinner every day, and then cut it down a bit more until im not eating anything!
But its going to be a bit hard with the fam in the house.. i wont be able to skip dinner every night. But i can find little ways around it..
So this is my day 1 blog. Please follow :) If i get enough followers ill be determined to blog regularly.
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Sweetie, this is a bad idea. And before you shoot this down for being a "hate comment", it's not. I don't hate you, or what you're doing. I understand it. But you don't need this. Anyone who sets out to get an eating disorder is looking to get something out of it--usually thinness.
ReplyDeleteAnd that's rarely what happens.
Because of my eating disorder (I've been bulimic for nearly two years), I've had so much shit happen. I've self-harmed, I've lost hair, I've withdrawn from people so I can eat and puke in peace. And you know how much weight I've lost? None. I started out at 124 pounds. And I'm 122 now. Two pounds in two years.
And I started out like this, wanting to lose weight just like a character in a book I read. I tried to stop eating, but food is a pretty hard habit to break. Anorexia and bulimia are pretty much ways to kill yourself really slowly, and make yourself incredibly miserable as you go.
Do some research. Learn about nutrition--eating healthy will make you lose weight, and keep it off. Starving yourself gives you incredibly quick results, but the second you start eating again, you just gain every pound back, and it comes back as fat.
I'm sorry if I'm preaching, or being rude, but I really don't want anyone to have to go through anything like what's happened to me. My email is skinnygrrl@inbox.com if you would like to talk.
if you dont have annorexia yet dont try and get it...trust me i think i have it and it is slowly consuming my life.
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