My very first words.

Hi :) Im Kourtney, im 14 years old and i am (well will be hopefully) a pro-ana.. or a pre pro-ana?.
If you are against the opinions on this blog, then please do not read it. I completely understand if your are because its not the healthiest option. But I'm determined to do this and any hate messages are just going to get deleted.. so here goes...

I weigh about 50 kilos and am 157cm tall. Which apparently is a "healthy" weight for my age and height.

Though I dont really agree with that opinion.

When I look at myself in the mirror, all I see is fat.
Fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat and more fat.

I feel disgusting.

Im not unpopular at school. In fact, im friends with most of the people there. I have many close friends too. Who are really supportive of me. They compliment me, comment on my photos and make me feel good about myself :)

But these minor self esteems boosts dont last for very long.

I hate healthy foods... i dont eat hardly and vegetables or fruits, i barely drink water. I love foods like breads, eggs, pasta and dairy (all the fatty foods :@!!).

But i've decided to do something about my weight and be a pro-ana!
Meaning a pro anorexic.
I mean im not anorexic yet, but im determined to get there.
I've been looking up tips and advice, sites and blogs i can follow. And i haven't eaten all day today! I've only had a chocolate milk (let myself down a bit there), a orange juice and a glass of water.. but im about to have dinner.. :/
Ive tried purging but its much too hard.

Ive decided im going to try and just eat dinner every day, and then cut it down a bit more until im not eating anything!

But its going to be a bit hard with the fam in the house.. i wont be able to skip dinner every night. But i can find little ways around it..


So this is my day 1 blog. Please follow :) If i get enough followers ill be determined to blog regularly.

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