The Sweet Temptations.

Hey guy's :)

SO I just wanted you to know, my blog isn't letting me comment :/ So sorry if I don't reply. Otherwise you can send me an email if you'd like..
iwillnotbefrozen@hotmail.com

But anyway, to those last comments. Thanks guys. I REALLY appreciate it, honestly. It's really good to know that someone actually cares. But I am so desparate. I have no where else to go. It's like my last option. It's not like I want to be unhealthy. But at the moment, thin is more important than healthy. And I'm going to try and not let it get out of hand... if things go the way I plan.

I've only eaten 403 calories today! (Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!)
But I still have to eat dinner :/ So that could be fatally destroyed by the end of the night.

I ruined my going all day at school without eating :(
It was cupcake day at school and I indulged in a vanilla cupcake which ended up being like 300 calories. And in the morning I had a hot chocolate.
Damn me and my sweet tooth.

I feel like it's finally kicking in. The obsession is finally taking place. Like, everytime i'm hungry, or i'm offered food I just have to think about being thin and controlling myself.
I'm just starting to get determined to get the body I dream of. I just want a hip bone, and a flat stomach, and average sized boobs. Maybe then I can be just as pretty as all my friends.
Maybe then I can fit in, and i'll be the beautiful one.
Maybe it's never going to happen. Maybe the more weight I lose, the more i'll want to lose. My goal might start getting lower, and lower, and lower. Until something has to be done. But there's a chance that won't happen right?
I guess I just have to take that chance. Because i'm so, so desparate.
Desparate to be the pretty, thin girl.

I'll do whatever it takes.